I did not want to exist. That idea came to me again and again, as the only solution to my pain. I grew up as a «weird» child, in a deeply homophobic world. I learned that the only way to protect myself was to remain invisible. 

I made an effort to be the best kid and the best man, so that no-one would not notice my «defect». On several nights I went to bed crying in silence. I asked with all my might to wake up “normal»; to stop being gay, but it did not happen. Following multiple attempts to take my own life, I began to recuperate pieces of myself that I had been forced to reject. Now, the face I see in the mirror is the face I am proud to show the world.